Day 12: In Chapter Nine, I hit “rock bottom.” Talk about your own rock bottom moment, and how you found the strength and the courage to rise.
Since I’ve already spoken in depth about the biggest rock bottom moment in my life so far, I won’t go into anymore detail about it. At this point, you all know a good bit about my story and how my rock bottom happened a few years back after the end of both a career and a relationship that I thought I wanted at the time. So, with that being said, I’ll just expand a little bit more about what that rock bottom taught me and why I feel it’s so imperative for people to go through that type of moment every now and then in life.
When I hit my rock bottom, I kept telling myself that there was no way that I could come back from it. I literally could not see how my life could get any better at that point. I kept acting like everything in my life was being done to me on purpose, and it just didn’t seem fair. It felt like everything and everyone was against me, and I was left to fight the battle alone. I felt so defeated. Yet, at the same time, I kept trying to remind myself that what I was going through was minuscule compared to what other people in the world were going through. I knew people battling cancer, struggling with their jobs, and losing loved ones. Yet, there I was, acting like the world was ending because I was heartbroken. I had so many emotions. One minute, I was sad, and the next minute, I was angry. Then, I felt guilty for being angry, but I also didn’t want anyone to feel bad for me, yet I wanted them to ask me if I was okay at the same time. Ugh, it was all just so incredibly annoying.
After the initial hit of rock bottom passed by, and I realized that all of the emotions I was feeling were completely normal, it became easier for me to talk about it all with those closest to me. Despite all the struggles that I’ve faced with some of my family members in the past, one thing has never changed and that is their love and support for me and each other in times of need. I quickly realized how blessed I was with some of the best friends and family on the planet. They wasted no time lifting me up and reminding me of just how good of a person I really am. They reminded me of my strengths, and it got me thinking “if this is how other people see me, then why can’t I see it in myself?” It was pretty eye-opening. In time, I learned more about my own strengths and potentials, and I realized that I needed to hit rock bottom in order to truly find myself.
It is absolutely necessary to hit rock bottom and face disappointment in life. It’s how we grow. It’s how we learn. It’s how we better understand ourselves and the things that we do and don’t want out of life. Without the tough moments to teach us, we ultimately stay complacent, and change won’t happen there. Sometimes, we really have to fall apart in order to find the person that we’re truly meant to be.